We’re just a million little god’s causin' rain storm.

pity party.

2010-03-03T23:06:00.000-08:00

for just this one night i need to feel sorry for myself, it's an itch i have to scratch.
Edward Sharpe & the Electric Zeroes were in my town and much to my dismay could neither find a concert buddy nor muster the courage to go myself.
And of course, Conan O'Brien just happens to go to this concert.
So here I am at my desk even though i should be sleeping in preparation for my midterm tomorrow with a research outline and introduction to finish and i couldn't feel worse.
Additionally, my battle with gravity has been a losing one as of late.
dropped tray of food at dinner
+flooded my desk
+slipped and got soaked in the rain
+cannot stop dropping the one binder whose papers aren't put away.

THE END

2010-02-01T22:46:00.000-08:00

well i know i was really late in watching it and you can choose to disregard me for it but i'm going to miss conan. without him, i wouldn't know of the genius of arcade fire, what would happen in the year 2000, and the wonders of the string dance.
this leaves a hole in my routine and i'm not so good with change.
for all the times i laughed this is the only time i cried and i think i might even change a little.
over the years i've become more pessimistic than necessary and thanks to you, if only for tonight, i feel a little better about my life.

Please do not be cynical. I hate cynicism. For the record, it's my least favorite quality, it doesn't lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen. I’m telling you, amazing things will happen.

”

—Conan O'Brien, in his final statement.

for you coco, i'll try my best.

i think

2010-01-11T17:11:00.000-08:00

maybe if i really try this time i can learn to be happy.
this year is really exciting.
SONG IN MY HEAD
Psychic City (Voodoo City) - YACHT

keep in mind if this song breaks into the world i blame it on you.

My Albums of the Year (2008)

2008-12-02T15:22:00.000-08:00

well it's been quite some time but here are those i like best for the entire year.
THE 10.
1. MGMT - Oracular Spectacular
if i had a list of favorite albums of the year i'm sure this would be near the top. all the songs are creative in their own way and still amazing. if you don't have this buy it now.

2. Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend
even though, admittedly i didn't want to like this band [because i thought bands with "Vampire" in the name could never be good], i love this CD and am often found asking "Who gives a f*ck about an Oxford Comma??"

3. Coldplay - Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends
just when i had given up on bands that had made it into the mainstream Coldplay slaps me in the face with this album so good i thought i'd never stop listening to it, and thankfully i haven't.

4. Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles
where would my list be without a healthy dose of 8-bit techno?? you know your good when your signing song was "accidentally" recorded.

5. Kanye West - 808s & Heartbreak
say what you will of the man's "lackluster" performance of single "Love Lockdown". it. is. Kanye. West. the man is a musica genius, he could remix "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" and i would still pay $0.99 for it on iTunes

6. The Killers - Day & Age
i sadly was a fare the weather fan, only after the SNL performance did i realize the caliber of this record.

7. Lil Wayne - Tha Carter III
this album is quite frankly the shit. it's awesome and you can't even deny you bump to the futuristic abum with hits like "A Mili". he is the future...
as long as he doesn't drop the f*cking ball.

8. British Sea Power - Do You Like Rock Music?
yes, yes we do. this album is so good it gives me British envy.

9. What Made Milwaukee Famous - What Doesn't Kill Us
if you're anything like me, it's possible, you will have had "Sultan" stuck happily in your head permenetly at least until you started questioning the band's name.

10. Katy Perry - One of the Boys
dear everyone, i am sorry, i am sorry if you are unable to handle the enormous pop of this album but that is the best thing about it. her beats are so catchy, i only wish i didn't have to share her with everyone else.

dear Radiohead, i wish i could have included In Rainbows and of course it would have been at number one but you released it 3 days before the new year. :[[
anyway that is that and i think i''ll start posting again, that was funnn.

some people.

2008-07-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

in recent news a young man of 17 was decapitated. By a Batman ride.
BUT to get to where this happened he had to climb several fences marked "Danger Do Not Enter" and "Authorized Personnel Only".
So my heart goes out to this young MAN's friends and families but I have issues mourning his death. As some one of the same age you must understand I know when you're at an amusement park and you see all the fences surrounding the base of these extremely fast rides it doesn't take more than watching 1/2 the rides progress to realize why there are fences there, SO THINGS LIKE THIS DON'T HAPPEN.
Even if you can't read or process sentences with more than 1 word, you see the ride moving at impossible speeds and know not to go near it.

2008-06-29T12:09:00.000-07:00

So an update on life.
UCLA summer sessions are amazing. the weaather is beautiful and i never want to go home.

That hellogoodbye concert i went to at SSMF was fan-F*ck-tastic and Forest is hot sauce.

and now here i am watching the world cup with all the foreign exchange students and i can't decide which side to vote for.

once i'm gone.

2008-06-11T23:48:00.000-07:00

to LA of course.

i ~~can't~~ can wait to go. i mean who wouldn't want to be stranded in a dorm room hours away from home with no transportation?? me, clearly.

but you know what i think i should just grow up and make the best of this situation.

confidence.

i am going to be the governance of the sound of music.

i can do it because i say i can so put that in your pipe and smoke. when i get there i intend to be outgoing and make new friends and whether or not that is in WoW or IRL we will have to wait me see.

so a week from friday i will be gone and missing you all.

CH-CH-CHANGES!!

this is ridiculous.

2008-04-10T16:08:00.000-07:00

in case you haven't heard of this (http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/03/25/walm...) case i'm going to tell you how fucked it is.

a walmart employee was in a horrific accident caused permanent mental damage.

yes horrible.

so the woman sued with walmart on her behalf and...

VICTORY!! she wins $470,000.

that is awesome.

BIG FUCKING BUT!

she hadn't realized (how the fuck would she??) that in walmart fine print it states that the can seize any money won in court.

SO MOTHER FUCKING WALMART THAT MAKES BILLIONS took this poor women's money that she needed since she can't work any.

so i have decided i will i never associate myself with such a ridiculously corrupted corporation.

now please tell everyone you know of this travesty and decide for yourselves whether or not you feel you should support them.

i enjoy this.

2008-04-08T17:18:00.000-07:00

song of the weak:
"Time to pretend" MGMT
i think i enjoy how hypocritical it makes me feel.

like most people around the age of 16 (17 on the 14th) i have teenage angst. i can't wait to get out of high school.
i think i need a new beginning.

and here's my general idea of why it's normal to hate grades 9-12:
we're all just so frustrated, i can't think of one person who goes into it knowing exactly what to do in every moment of every day and that sometimes we're all just so confused.
that's my general feeling towards high school, confusion.
there are some many possibilities and i feel like if i'm going to become an optimist i have to start now be ignoring the bad choices i've made since i haven't quite figured out how to learn from them yet.

so, in a short i am looking for a new life, a new start if you will, i just feel i need the chance to go back to the beginning and look at it from a different angle to see where i could have improved.